lunedì 15 dicembre 2008

i run away

i run away to big cities which lure your brain like a drug. i want to be absorbed, chewed, transformed.

i want to set myself free. desire is evil. i let you go.

domenica 14 dicembre 2008

ex nihil

nihil fit.

6 in the morning, fermina throws her guts up.
6 in the morning fermina hides in the bathtub filled with warm water.
6 in the morning fermina throws her guts up.

10 in the morning frank is dead.
10 in the morning fermina wears red lipstick and stiletto black shoes.
10 in the morning fermina dances on frank's grave.

frank love love love love Frank! love!

If you died a thousand deaths it still wouldn't be enough!
I'd sell my soul to the devil to see you come alive just to be able to kill you again and again and again.

I want to fuck you and while I'm on top put a gun in your mouth, see your nothingness in the eyes and then shoot. It would be too easy.. Slashing my wrists and filling you with my blood would perhaps be better.

The fires of hell, the furies and the demons, I wish them all to you. I want you to be not unhappy, miserable. I wish you pain ten million times stronger than mine. Sorrow, spleen,hatred, contempt, disgust,disappointment, abandonment, loneliness, betrayal, pain. It's my cocktail from me to you. With all my energy and all my love Frank.Love Frank! Love!

6 in the morning Fermina throws her guts up.
6 in the morning Fermina hides in the bathtub filled with warm water.

ex nihil nihil fit.

mercoledì 10 dicembre 2008


frank tastes like furious storm and lightning.pure cold depth, bluemarine.

f & f sleeping naked, her always glued to him, each dreaming of the other.

..of what i want and what he can give me. normality is overrated.

giovedì 4 dicembre 2008


blumarine you.
and me?

martedì 2 dicembre 2008

tectonic movements

Empty rain slaps night in the face.
The bathtub is filled with huge pieces of ice and black butterflies. Fermina steps in naked, the butterflies disintegrate and the ice melts instantly.

"You, I life you.Because when I crush your bones and chew on your flesh, I'm feeding myself with beauty and sublime poetry. When you are not, I feed myself with nothingness. No lows, no ups. Pure nothing. And it's the only circumstance I can start to fall in love with myself."